A little bit of "Imposter Syndrome"
At least that's what it feels like.
And if you weren't sure what exactly "Imposter Syndrome" is, Wikipedia defines it as a term referring to "high-achieving individuals marked by an inability to internalize their accomplishments and a persistent fear of being exposed as a 'fraud'".
I have to admit, being in a new city in a new program surrounded by new people it's hard not to feel exactly this. I'm used to playing down any success I achieve or simply looking harder toward the next goal. It's easy to get caught up in what's ahead and forget about what's right in front of you. I think everyone could get a little better at appreciating not only the present moment, but the achievements you've made thus far.
This blog is something I decided to go to document my three years (or more) living in New York City as a graduate student studying cinematic production in the Feirstein Graduate School of Cinema in Brooklyn. This is an amazing opportunity I have and I'm excited to see what the city has to offer me (and what I have to offer the city).
Overall my blog won't be super focused on any one thing - it's more of an extension of my journal. I want to be able to revisit projects I've worked on, places I've been and the people I've met here and I figured a blog like this would be the best and quickest way to do that. I think writing down your experiences and feelings is such a good way to internalize the events in your life (at least, it really helps me). If others can find some entertainment or interest in this, that would be a bonus, but it isn't my primary goal.
My first semester and three-four months here will be one of the most tumultuous as I learn to navigate the city, get used to being an entirely new environment and adjust to a graduate student's workload.
But before I go into that, here's a little about me in case you're curious: I'm a native Virginian from Fairfax and recently graduated from George Mason University with a Communications degree and a Computer Science minor. I love to read, write, and play video games. I'm interested in media representation and how the ever-changing technologies play a part in the multimedia of today. I'm a video editor, visual designer, and videographer by trade and hope to make a career working for a cause I care about by writing and creating art that sends a powerful message.
Welcome to my journey and new life in New York City!